hello, i just wanted to write a clarification post if anyone is confused or upset about anything i've posted said or done. if you think i'm making excuses for myself like, "oh if we text or call you you'll yell or say it's not us or invalidate what we're saying" i'm really not. i would literally let you record the conversation and decide for yourself if you think i'm crazy. all i'm saying is if you disagree with me or think i'm missing some crucial information, then have a real conversation with me. because i have evidence of this phenomenon and i really think i could convince you if you think i'm crazy that this stuff is real if you actually had a real conversation with me. i can prove i'm not lying about what i've posted said and done. but hiding behind other people when they've already talked about it like a bunch of times and making them repeat conversations is psychological abuse. if you think that is what i'm doing, just talk to me. if you think i'm invalidating what you're saying, like i said, you can literally record our conversation and post it online and out me as a crazy person. i'm not afraid of talking about this. i don't stop people from doing what they want to do. i might take a break from social media for a while because i'm enjoying just living my life and working at a job i love, and no i didn't quit my job, like i said if i get fired i get fired, and if you think i'm an abuser there or anywhere else call me yourself, record the conversation if you want. i'm just existing, if you think the problem is yeah you're just existing you didn't help at all and you owe me credit for something or if you think i copied you and it's negatively impacting your life or if you have any other problems with me or what i'm doing i stand by literally call me yourself at 864-434-8476. i honestly hope you have a great day. update: this is not a cry for help, but since i just got another flat tire today i just want to say, no matter how much i get fucked with i am not quitting my job and i'll say again i don't care if i end up in a ditch i would literally rather die than hurt jose. if he thinks i'm being weird i'll delete this if he tells me to delete it, i've always respected if someone asks me to delete something and i've followed up to see if they want me to delete anything else and i can prove this. and i don't delete other peoples' texts and stuff and i don't fuck with people. and if you read my texts i'm just saying you might want to read them from my phone cause none of the texts are deleted. i'm not making anyone like or interact with me and i'm not suicidal. if you think you can change my mind or think i'm missing some important information, or think i'm an abuser whether i mean to be or not, or think i'm supporting an abuser whether i mean to or not, my phone number is 864-434-8476 you can record the phone call but you shouldn't be afraid to face me yourself if you think you can change my mind. i promise i'm a calm individual and these are all my words so if you disagree with that or something i've said or done or think i'm taking credit for your work or something or have anything else you want to say or if you think i'm missing something, then call me at 864-434-8476 yourself cause if you think the facts are on your side then as i've said, don't be passive aggressive, you shouldn't be afraid to have a conversation with me. if you think i'm being passive aggressive i think i could change your mind but i won't use force to change your mind or do the unconsensual special effects, thought control, sound effects, semantics stuff, "these your words and these my words", and wordplay war bs, which i'll say again i'm not afraid to say is rape, and if you think i'm lying or wrong about something or making excuses or think these aren't my words as i've said you can call me yourself at 864-434-8476 and record the conversation if you want to, i won't shut you down i'll fully hear you out and you can post it and people can decide for themselves if they think i'm queening or making excuses or shutting you down. but i don't "call" people other than literally. as i've said that stuff can be cool if it's consensual. but i don't want to be in the way of some huge societal change so if you think i'm queening go ahead and literally murder me and see if it helps your cause. or maybe read all my art, and posts, and notes on my spotify accounts and ask people directly that you think i may have hurt and see for yourself if i wasn't direct with them or if you think i don't know someone's true self whether you think i'm using them or they're using me. and to clarify this further, i am willing to be celibate, live alone, be broke, be alone, literally whatever else it takes to prove jose is innocent whether we get to be together or not. i've talked to cole and my other partners and family and friends about this. if you think i'm misinterpreting him or anyone else or lying or letting him or anyone else get abused come save him from this "awful" life or have a real conversation with me. i've never forced anyone to say, think, read, or do anything and you don't have to look at my stuff but if you still disagree with me or if you think i'm nuts and or think i'm supporting a villain whether i mean to or not or think i'm missing some important information all i ask is call me yourself directly and tell me your name and present your case for yourself at 864-434-8476. cause i don't enter peoples' minds and do this shit to them:
